August 18, 2014

I am Loved so much more than I deserve

Today was a significant day in our household. Today, Kloe, my oldest started first grade. She only did half day Kindergarten last year so this is her first year going all day every day. She is more than prepared and super excited about it. But last night as we were saying our prayers I began thanking God for an answered prayer that started over 7 years ago.

About 7 years ago is when I was pregnant with Kloe. As a classroom teacher I saw that kids came to First grade already having formed their personalities, their work habits, and so much of their personality. I felt a huge tug on my heart to be able to stay at home with my new baby so I could help shape her. I had no idea how we could afford to do that. Through a lot of prayer, self reflection, and just listening to God and the clues around me it soon became apparent that I should try to teach art lessons to kids. After all .. art was a big part of my life, I had been trained on how to teach kids..put the two together and teaching art to kids seemed natural and also much needed in our community.

I started P'zazz while on maternity leave. I wasn't sure if it would last any longer than my year of leave or not. I remember praying and hoping it would last at least 3 years and if I could just make an extra $700 a month, even if I was eating noodles for dinner, we could make it.

When I think of that prayer and I see what God has done over and beyond what I prayed for I am absolutely humbled, thankful, and moved that he loves me that much. P'zazz is in it's 7th year now and we continue to grow every year. We have been able to help so many organizations and charities through fundraisers. We have loved on and encouraged thousands of kids. We are helping feed orphanages around the world. We have a second location that makes a difference within that community. My thinking was so small compared to what God wanted to do and is still doing.

So today, as Kloe went to first grade it was a huge milestone for her but also for me and my God. I felt that he was smiling as he said " I gave you your hearts desire.. why did you ever doubt me"

Sometimes I think that we don't believe that much good can happen to us. We know God 'can' do something but we aren't sure if he 'will' or not. But even when we don't know what he is going to do we can be sure of a few things.. 1) He LOVES us more than we can imagine 2) he wants the best for our lives more than we do 3) and he wants to use us

That's what I felt today. I felt God's love and faithfulness and goodness.





1 comment :

joystudio said...

Hi Kasey - I was just introduced to you through the ABJ email. This post phrase caught my eye, loved more than I deserve. I can relate. I'm enjoying reading about your studio and charitable efforts very much. I'm looking forward to meeting you in person next week.

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